sometimes some things its easier said than done. how i wished i cld go back to the past and start things all over agn. life is just full of unexpected change. the heck with promises, its has no value whtsoever. promises can be broken, so wht cant? i myself am puzzled by this. if thr is a medicine or a way to make me forget, it wld be btr. everytime my hopes get high, the disappointment just gets greater. so, i shall not get my hopes high agn. maybe being emo is in my blood... life is so cruel sometimes. it just keeps getting harder as the day goes by. if i am void of humanity, emotions and feelings, maybe i will be a happier man. wht you said is true, maybe this isnt suppose to last... just not fated. cherish the moment one have and savour it as it might be gone tmr. i must go and find my inner self, my true identity in order to find happiness. experiencing this has made me to think tht friends are more impt now. life still goes on. if anyone see me feeling down, just scold me and wake me up as this is a crucial period and i shld not be dwelling over this. thank you. life still goes on. this is just the beginning...